Oh, You Have Got to be Kidding...

so today was take two on my root canal. the problem is that several other old fillings have been working their way loose and needed to be addressed first. so by the time they've gotten through those, I'm toast. between severe TMJ problems and the stupid anxiety disorder, I can only make it so long. and today the Valium never kicked in. AT ALL. I might as well have had a triple espresso instead of two downers. ridiculous. and, of course, it all adds up to more money I don't have, that I'll have to borrow from my incredibly helpful and understanding parents, which is totally unfair to them. they dont have a spare $4000 to be dropping on my teeth, and besides i still owe them money from the last two failure-ensconced years of my life. ugh. I'm so frustrated. my next appointment isn't until January when I get back from cruising, so hopefully nothing else will fall apart between now and then...